From slow to no

My eight follicles have turned into 3...This cycle is a bust. I think that we will do IUI, might as well since we have spent $3500 on meds. Tomorrow we have an appointment with the Dr. to talk about if he thinks a different protocol would have a different outcome. My gut says no. I am already on a very aggressive, poor responder protocol. I suspect that we will discuss donor eggs. We are open to that, and really quite positve at the prospect of me still being able to have our baby and for a biological connection with T. It's a lot to process. After the ultrasound on Saturday - when we discovered the smaller follicles had just died off - I spent the whole day crying. I am sad that this cycle didn't work, I am sad that we will be dropped from the shared risk program and will have to spend a lot more money, I am sad that every step that we take that is supposed to be getting us closer to having a family seems to be getting us further away, I am sad that my body's failure is the cause for so much pain for T and me.