Relax, It'll happen...

A couple trying to become a family. Finally pregnant after infertility & IVF...slowly getting used to the idea that we may actually have the baby we've been dreaming of.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Near the end...


36 weeks 4 days - this is me, looking like a barrel and squinting at the sun!

2 words...I suck. I have dropped the ball on this blog and probably wont be picking it up anytime soon. I have directed my energy to a blog that I created for my family and friends to follow the last part of this pregnancy and to be able to keep them connected once Carson is born. I have truely appreciated all the support along the way - reading other blogs and having women who are going thru the same thing read mine, has been very comforting. I read blogs long before I began this one, and it really helped to know that what I was feeling was "normal" and that I wasn't the only one going thru this hell, because as all of you know, it sure feels like it out in the "real" world. This has been a journey, one that I am still on - one that I would not wish on anyone. The journey to motherhood has made me a stronger, more compasionate person, and has changed me forever. I wish all of you still on the journey the outcome that you are praying for.

No changes with the pregnancy. I am still contracting, sometimes a couple times an hour and some hours every 2 minutes! They are rather uncomfortable now, I would go so far to say that sometimes they actually hurt. No change in my cervix, 50 % efaced. Had an ultra sound on Friday. There is a reason that I am huge, he is measuring by US at about 7 1/2 pounds with 4 weeks to go until the due date of Sept 2. I hope they are a little wrong. I want a big healthy boy, but maybe not that big ( she said he could be over 9 pounds if I go till 9/2)

I am still working - but not really loving it. I am big, slow and tired - but wouldn't trade it for anything. I am up at least 4x a night (peeing) and my back is killing me. At 5"1' I am ALL baby in the front. I look like a weeble wabble, I did not turn into one of those "cute little pregnant women", instead a "used to be little, big pregnant woman who isnt feeling so cute"

The house is completely baby move in ready! I have nothing left to nest. I can't wait for him to come out so I can see what he looks like and make sure he is OK.